Age is catching up on me..yet the confusions of life is ever increasing.
Sometimes i feel like picking the bag and leaving these known
shores..known faces..and go into the unknown shores..meet some unknown
faces..be somewhere where i am not known..
When i was a child..i wanted to grow up..wanted to be like the adults around me..all responsible..enjoying their freedom..doing what they felt like..while i was being held back by my parents authority. But now after crossing the threshold of so called adulthood, i feel even more shackled..more held back..by some invisible bonds. Though am free from the authority of my parents..i feel those days were the best. Being an adult has only increased my confusions four fold..at least being a child i was less confused about things..about people..about the relation i had maintained with those people.
When i see small child's pressing their faces on the windows of the cars which i pass by, i feel what stops me from doing so..is it because adults are expected to behave mature..to behave in a sensible way. But then what is the use of being such adults if you can't do what you feel like doing. In this case the children out there are far more lucky than us..everything for them is a new thing, a new world without thinking about how other people would perceive their doings.
People say there is a child inside every one of us..which wants to come out. We all have those phases when we feel we are bored of being adults. But with me..i feel the child inside me never left me..i hate to pretend to behave like an adult..all responsible and mature..planning things in advance about future. When i start thinking about the expectation of people around me after getting married..being the husband material or the father material..i shudder. I grew up thinking being adults would be all cool and fun..being free..living life on your own terms..but here everything is just the opposite.
People say to me..neither you look or act your age..you are not responsible..don't know how to prioritize things..don't know how to plan for your future..don't know how to save up..act childish..Thing is i have never know what growing up meant..i am the way i was through my school..through my college..
If only i could rewind my life back..but there is no pause or rewind button in life..it only moves forward..
When i was a child..i wanted to grow up..wanted to be like the adults around me..all responsible..enjoying their freedom..doing what they felt like..while i was being held back by my parents authority. But now after crossing the threshold of so called adulthood, i feel even more shackled..more held back..by some invisible bonds. Though am free from the authority of my parents..i feel those days were the best. Being an adult has only increased my confusions four fold..at least being a child i was less confused about things..about people..about the relation i had maintained with those people.
When i see small child's pressing their faces on the windows of the cars which i pass by, i feel what stops me from doing so..is it because adults are expected to behave mature..to behave in a sensible way. But then what is the use of being such adults if you can't do what you feel like doing. In this case the children out there are far more lucky than us..everything for them is a new thing, a new world without thinking about how other people would perceive their doings.
People say there is a child inside every one of us..which wants to come out. We all have those phases when we feel we are bored of being adults. But with me..i feel the child inside me never left me..i hate to pretend to behave like an adult..all responsible and mature..planning things in advance about future. When i start thinking about the expectation of people around me after getting married..being the husband material or the father material..i shudder. I grew up thinking being adults would be all cool and fun..being free..living life on your own terms..but here everything is just the opposite.
People say to me..neither you look or act your age..you are not responsible..don't know how to prioritize things..don't know how to plan for your future..don't know how to save up..act childish..Thing is i have never know what growing up meant..i am the way i was through my school..through my college..
If only i could rewind my life back..but there is no pause or rewind button in life..it only moves forward..
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